Happy Halloween !

Happy Halloween !

I'm so very sorry everyone! I totally forgot to post a fitness Friday post!

I happened to get a new (used) laptop for my daughter and spend the night updating all the programs, doing a fresh install, reconfiguring and all that. I totally got carried away with my geekiness.. :)

On that note, I'm going back to watch "Night of the Living Dead.." And I leave you, my dear readers with a totally silly (totally bad) Halloween joke.....


A man is walking home alone late one foggy Halloween night, when behind him he hears:

BUMP.......

BUMP.......

BUMP........


Walking faster, he looks back and through the fog he makes out the image of an upright casket banging its way down the middle of the street toward him.......

BUMP........

BUMP.........

BUMP........


Terrified, the man begins to run toward his home, the casket bouncing quickly behind him....

FASTER......

FASTER......

BUMP.......

BUMP.......

BUMP......


He runs up to his door, fumbles with his keys, opens the door, rushes in, slams and locks the door behind him. However, the casket crashes through the door, with the lid of the casket clapping.......on his heels, the terrified man runs.....

clappity-BUMP....

clappity-BUMP....

clappity-BUMP...


Rushing upstairs to the bathroom, he locks himself in. His heart is pounding; his head is reeling; his breath is coming in sobbing gasps....!

With a loud CRASH the casket breaks down the door....

Bumping and clapping towards him it comes.....

The man screams and reaches for something, anything, but all he can find is a bottle of cough syrup! Desperate, he throws the cough syrup at the casket..............................

And.......

The coffin stops....

::groans from the crowd::




Happy Halloween everyone! And to all my Witchy friends, Happy Samhain!

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A magickal HNT

A magickal HNT

So, I thought I'd give you a little peek into my magickal world. Even though, Halloween (for me) is more of a celebration (of the new year) and does not include goblins, Frankenstein and all the fun little ghouls - It still holds much magick for me and is one of my favorite holidays.

This is just one of my many books on the subject...

Happy HNT everyone!

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Sexting is for dirty birds.

Sexting is for dirty birds.

Now that I actually have this place to myself I can actually write a bit. I was thinking that I have not updated about our sex life in quite some time! Probably since we met Mr. Married I think. That's a while I believe!

Not that everyone reads this blog for the sole purpose of reading about sex or anything..
Oh, duh... yeah you do. That's why you found me in the first place.. Hahahaha...!

Honestly, not much has been going on really. After the Mr. Married thing I was a bit jaded towards the threesome with another guy. Then with the onset of my S.A.D that seemed to rear it's ugly head - hitting me like a ton of bricks, spinning me upside down and flipping me over... I didn't really wanna do anything. I am a lazy person by nature, (least I think so anyways) so having that hit me threw me for a loop.

I went and dug out my therapy light though and have been using it faithfully everyday for a half hour after work and my spirits have been once again returned to an "almost" normal state.

I have once again gotten a bit of a sexual appetite and been thinking how fun it will be. I have emailed a couple of cute guys at the adult site and although none are all that promising I love how my bf gets all excited when I am emailing them and I *think* flirting with them as well. It's all still feels kind of odd, but I think I am getting a bit more comfortable with it. It's getting easier anyways to strike up a conversation and stuff.

Bf and I were sexting Sunday night... It was actually fun. He wanted some dirty pictures of me blowing my toy, so I took some for him! I did ok. He liked them, and that's all that matters.



So... tell me - who else loves to be sexting their significant others? I think it's really fun and is a nice change. But ya gotta know how to text rather quickly I think! lol...

Or at least have a qwerty keypad... lol

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The Monday before Halloween!

The Monday before Halloween!

Monday, Monday........... my blogger friends... What is up with that!?

I have been a very good girl this past weekend though and cleaned my house, set up a new blog, disassembled some of my blogs, watched some new movies and also continued to read that book I was telling you about the other day. and.... I was even able to sleep in both days!

The book has been so insightful for me and I feel as though it has lifted a burden that I have been carrying around for so long. It's very refreshing. And it has gotten me thinking, which honestly has lifted my spirits because I can finally understand things a bit better.
I would like to post about it but would like to digest what it talks about a bit more before I go and try to actually put my thoughts into words.

So - In my travels via the web I found a couple of new kitty/funny pictures for you all. Hope you enjoy them! They are from the Icanhascheezeburger site.

Really... how would you answer the phone with a name like that?






Haha... I love Justin. Poor guy.

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Friday and fitness...

Friday and fitness...

Seriously, I am thinking about giving up the fitness Fridays. I can't seem to get my ass in gear these days.
I am however, back to eating a bit better and staying (somewhat) away from the junk food.
Except for Tuesday and Thursday - my bf was here and we got *take out* food both nights. I suppose he has to eat something, since I do not cook, he has to buy takeout.

As for any form of fitness, I have just not done it. I don't know why. I think it might have stemmed from being sick. I gave it up and have not been able to jump back on and get going.

But - I have started my therapy light though and am actually sitting here in front of it as I type! I guess you can call this "mental fitness..." heehee...

It is working a bit I think. Not a whole hell of a lot though. I am still pretty bluesy, but getting better. Not really been in the mood for any sex though. That might be related to my stomach looking like I'm 6 months pregnant...lol. It's really been gross off and on. As soon as I can get insurance I will be getting it rechecked!
My bf says that my posts have been a little depressing - so If they are then I gotta apologize. I don't mean to sound so "down" all the time. I just figure that writing about how I am feeling helps a bit to get it out and forgotten about. I don't actually confide in anyone so writing it here helps me. But I guess I can dwell on things too much at times.


I have also started reading this book - "The Tender Heart" It's pretty interesting. It explains that being sensitive is more of a personality trait and not a "flaw." It explains how having that trait can lead to insecurity. A lot of the time insecurity is masked really well - until something can trigger it in us and it rears it's full blown head. (like the sudden death of my brother a few years ago)

While some of the reviews were not too good - I feel that it is actually helping me to understand myself a bit more. I am insecure. I know I am. I have never been as bad as I am now though. Many of us are insecure in some small way. But for a person who has a sensitive personality - a bad up bringing can turn it into a huge problem.

For the most part I can hide it, but I am always second guessing myself, worrying about what others think, have issues with abandonment, etc...

For example - when my bf and I have a fight - (like we did last night) he use to just leave in the past and go home. Well, I have abandonment issues, so every single time he would leave it felt like I was *being abandoned* and it would hurt me for a long time and bring up all kinds of fears that we were done and all that.

So, I learned to "adapt."

Now when we fight - Instead of him leaving - I tell him to go home and it does not hurt as much. That way I do not feel as "abandoned" as I did before. I have learned to "throw him out" so I feel less "vulnerable."
I'm not sure if that makes any sense - but to a person like me - it helps me cope with the fight better!

That's what I have learned so far - and it's nice to know I am not crazy. Just sensitive - and now... totally insecure..lol

So, does anyone want to fess up and tell me what they are insecure about? Maybe public speaking? Abandonment? Looking stupid....etc?

I feel that the only way for me to be able to change is if I understand the things that trigger my behavior. And then when I understand them - I can apply what I need to make the changes. But I am a creature that wants to understand the why's of pretty much everything in my life! Sometimes it can be a blessing. And other times not so much.

But then again... knowledge is power.

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A screamin' HNT!

A screamin' HNT!

Today's HNT comes to you with a screeeeeammmmm!

Hahaha... Ok, bad attempt at a joke. Sorry. Hey, I tried... so shoot me... lol.

Actually, I finally took out my Halloween stuff last night and I remembered that it is HNT tomorrow (today) so I thought - let's try to come up with a picture using the old "Scream" mask!

This is what I came up with.

I know it's not all that creative - but I was trying to take the shot on my own. I do have a timer on the camera but I was not sure if my daughter would suddenly pop in cause she had a break in between classes! I get paranoid like that... lol

This is probably the *most* body/background I have shown. And see - my boobies are actually small! Hope you all enjoy!

Happy HNT everyone!

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Monday brings a chill in the air.

Monday brings a chill in the air.

Happy Monday everyone. I know I am not in the mood to be getting up at 6 am to be outta the house by 7. Especially in the fall and winter! It rained all day yesterday, then snowed for a while last night which did not help my mood one bit. But I am hoping today will be better cause I will be at work. Here are some cute pictures!

And, this week I have included some jokes that were sent to me via email... So don't be yelling at me about them if they are too rude! Most are oldies but goodies I think..

Looks like this might be in Mass...lol



This is a no brainer?


Q. What's the Cuban National Anthem?
A. Row, Row, Row Your Boat.

Q. Where does an Irish family go on vacation?
A. A different bar.

Q. What do you call it when an Italian has one arm shorter than the other?
A. A speech impediment.

Q. Why aren't there any Puerto Ricans on Star Trek ?
A. Because they're not going to work in the future either.

Q. Why do Driver Ed classes in redneck schools use the car only on
Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays?
A. Because on Tuesday and Thursday, the Sex Ed class uses it.

Q. What's the difference between a southern zoo and a northern zoo?
A.. The southern zoo has a description of the animal along with a recipe.

Q. What's the difference between a northern fairytale and a southern fairytale???
A. A northern fairytale begins, ...'Once upon a time...'
A southern fairytale begins,.... 'Y'all ain't gonna believe this shit.'

Q. Why doesn't Mexico have an Olympic team?
A. Because all the Mexicans who can run, jump or swim are already in the United States


Happy Monday everyone!

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Life in General on a Saturday!

Life in General on a Saturday!

Seriously - this weather is cold! I remember when I was a kid - Halloween time was just not so darn cold! Now it seems like everyone has to wear snowsuits out to Trick or Treat...lol



Today was better then yesterday I think, my browser says a big old 46 degrees. My daughter and I actually saw flurries yesterday. She was psyched... I was not. I think it is too early to be cold and snowing. She, however is already planning Christmas, and wants to get a larger tree this year!

Unfortunately, I think I am going to need my therapy light for my S.A.D. I was hoping not too this year, but I have been "down" for about three weeks now and that's not good. I know some of it has to do with all that has been going on in my life, me being sick, my monthly, daughter having surgery and all that..
But I also know that sad, hopelessness feeling that creeps in as well. I am wanting to stay in all the time, eat all the time, dumped my fitness routine, have been weepy and angry all at the same time. It's a constant roller coaster and I can't stand it. If I start using the light it should improve my moods.

I am not even wanting any sex really. Well, I like the thought of sex... but to actually do it is something totally different. It just seems like so much work to do... lol.

I hardly even check the sex sites anymore and I actually was emailed by a guy that I thought was decent looking, with an ok body - and I can't even be excited about that. I gave him my reg email addy and finally sent him a face picture today.
He prob won't like the looks of me anyways, so why even get excited, ya know?

And if he does? Well - I have not done my workouts, and am eating awful again so I look even more fat and dumpy then usual! I probably will chicken out cause I am feeling so blah.

On a positive note - I love my new boss! Not going to meetings everyday feels sooo nice! I hope she lasts. Now maybe I can get caught up with everything I am behind in because I have been "playing boss" for 10 months.

I am really, seriously starting to think about getting all my vanilla blogs up and running again as well. I was making a bit of money off of them a year or so ago.. then I think winter set in... And I pretty much gave em up. A few of the domains will be expiring in a month or so, so I will need to decide whether or not I want to renew. And I have other ones that are just parked domains that I need to set up as well.

I have been totally craving scary movies this week! I am watching every "scary" thing that I can find. Only problem is - nothing scares me! I wish I could find something that creeped me out...but I can't.

Although they do not creep me out - I LOVE the "Saw" movies! The first and second are my favorite ones.. They killed Jigsaw off way too early I think.. But now - I gotta watch them no matter how bad they are...lol. I thought that the first Saw movie had the best ending I ever!

I just wish they kept Jigsaw alive. He comes back in the other movies, but it's in "memories" so that kinda stinks.


Kinda like all those "Friday the 13th" movies they made...I just had to see em all. Even if most sucked. I just love gory type of movies. Actually, I like most types of movies. In my old age I am turning into a movie whore I think.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend! And a big hello and welcome to all my new subscribers/followers. Glad to have you all here. :)

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happy LATE HNT...lol

happy LATE HNT...lol

Ok... kid stepped out for a minute... sorry, no time to be creative and look through things to post.. here is a quick AND late HNT... lol

I know... it's not even really half nakie either... but you never know.... I might not have any pants on or something...lol

At least it is orange! :)

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Happy Lurker Day!

Happy Lurker Day!

Well, if I am to understand it correctly, today is "Love our lurkers Day 2009!


So.... happy lurker Day to all of my lurkers! According to my stats that come in every now and again - I actually have many readers out there - but only a handful actually comment.

This is 100% fine with me - and totally understandable as well. I lurk at a lot of places too. I wanted to take this day to say hello and thanks for reading my blog.

I hope that you will continue to come visit me and I hope in some small way I make your day a tad brighter with my whining and stories!

Feel free to leave me a comment, or send me an email just to say hello - And if you wish - I can delete your comment if you would like me too. Just let me know in the comment section and I shall. :)

I even turned on anonymous commenting as well, just so you all can say hello.

So waddya say? Wanna leave a comment. :)

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Monday morning.... again?

Monday morning.... again?

Happy Monday everyone! I have been out of work since last Thursday - It's gonna be painful to go back and play catch up with everything! Hope everyone has had a great weekend full of fun, relaxation and also fantasies!

Here are some cute little funnies I found in my travels. I just love these..!

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Sunday is my lazy day. (but then again, they all are!)

Sunday is my lazy day. (but then again, they all are!)

Well, it's been quite a week. Because this blog tends to be very void of details, I cannot get into what went on during the week that has got me so worn out!



I am becoming torn between actually writing about my life's details here because of the fantasies that my bf and I have. I want to write about my everyday life here... but at the same time I want to keep our little sex kinks private... so I fear writing about too much personal stuff that might link me to my everyday world. This is why it is talk about sex and fitness. I only talk about my fitness at work IF I am asked...which usually, nobody cares.

I have no *real* friends in my everyday life. I prefer to not socialize with anyone from work because I have been screwed over a few times by so called *work friends.* so I tend to keep to myself. They do know about things that are happening in my life though, so if I was to write about stuff here - and they happened to find it... well - since they are just *work acquaintances* they might have a field day....

Know what I mean?

I'm really getting bored with this whole "meeting other guys to fuck" thing as well. I can't seem to find any that look good enough - for me. And if someone actually looks decent - there is a friggin attachment on their end!

I did see one in my email today - but now I just feel to fat and gross to even reply. He was decent looking, and not too old...so why would he even be interested if he actually saw me?

It's just no fun it seems. I go to one of the adult sites and just get so disgusted with the amount of bald, fat, married 50 year old men that contact me! It's gross. Really gross. And very discouraging as well. Sheesh... why is is so many men cheat? Why can't they just talk to their wives?

Plus - in the last 2 weeks I have gained 4 freaking pounds back. This has really upset me. It takes me so long just to loose one friggin pound.... and 2 weeks to gain back 4?

I am tired of chicken and vegies. Usually, I love them. But what the hell... I want pasta and stew and the ability to have a drink on occasion and NOT worry about how much I am going to gain.

I wanna get pizza with my daughter on a Saturday night, and not worry about how much exercise I need to do for it.

I want to be this person - that I can envision in my head... but try as I might - I can't get there. It really, really upsets me.
I am just tired of everything it seems this week.

I must check and see if I am PMS'n.. When I am PMS'y everything I try and hide wants to come out and scream loudly, for all the world to hear.

Maybe I can just sleep for a week? Maybe it will be better then?

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Fitness Friday.... not today.

Fitness Friday.... not today.

Sorry guys, I'm slacking on everything this week. I decided to take the week off from HNT and also any form of fitness it seems. I might post a belated HNT tomorrow - but I don't know.

Everything is fine, but it's just been a busy week. I was sick last week, was feeling better and now I am sick again. No fever or anything - just a nasty sore throat again. I still do not feel 100% from last weeks sickness either. Even my bf is still sick with it. He actually went to the Dr and got an antibiotic and today has been the first day that he feels a bit ok.
My daughter had a routine surgery this week as well, so I have been waiting on her with round the clock pain meds too.
All in all the week has been crazy. I am hoping next week will be a bit better. I'm still reading everyone, but not really commenting..I just don't have all that much ambition this week. lol.

Not only that... but I think I am PMS'n now too! I can't catch a break this week....lol.

With that, I'll leave you with a link to one of my favorite sites..

Here is a workout - "The great sex workout." Try it... see if it works! It only takes 5 minutes! Can do it while you are watching TV.

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Kitty Cat Monday

Kitty Cat Monday

So - today I got more cute kitties for you. I love them. I'm sure you all don't like em - but ya know what? I'm cranky and tired and I don't wanna go to work today.. lol

HeeHee... Happy Monday everyone. Enjoy the cute kitties. These come from the "I can has cheezeburger site..

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No Friday Fitness today...

No Friday Fitness today...

Sorry guys, this cold/flu or whatever the hell I have had has totally and completely kicked my ass this week.
As far as fitness goes this week - I was able to do my running/walking combo, my bike and also my abs workout - on Monday. That was it. I was down for the count on Wednesday night, and horrible yesterday as well. I need to get my strength back before I even attempt an hour cardio workout. As shitty as I feel for not doing my workouts, I know it won't do me any good to push myself into doing it.

I think I might have strep, but I have no health insurance at this time (still waiting for them to get off their asses and send me my first premium!) So I can't really go to the Dr. for any meds.

It's getting better... just taking a while for my ass to get in gear and make up those antibodies!

How ironic is it that both my bf and I took today off to spend it together and well, we have... Just under a cloud of sinus meds, NyQuil, Ibuprofen, and lots of comfort food.

You should see my diningroom table! It looks like a freakin pharmacy. Kinda comical actually. I think I am not going to ask for anymore Fridays off. lol.

Yeah right, I still will.

And to top it off, we had to go clothes shopping today so I can start dressing like a geek/Best Buy worker...lol.


My company is now requiring polo shirts and Khakis. And let me tell you - I look HORRIBLE with those on my body. My bf has now told me I look like a lesbian in them. lol. (yeah, that's right... I compaired polo shirts with dykes - so shoot me)

That is just great. Just great. I'm not self conscious enough... Now I gotta worry about what people are thinking...

At least ALL of us are going to look bad.. not just me.

Anyways, Sorry to disappoint you all this week. I feel kinda shitty about it. Not that you all wanted to hear about my fitness stuff....lol

But I wish I culd have managed a more creative HNT.

There is always next week! I might have to do mine early though because my daughter is having (minor) surgery next week..

We will see. Will keep you all updated.

Have a great weekend everyone! If I don't post this weekend, will catch you all on Monday with my "Funny Mondays"

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My HNT... Sickie edition...

My HNT... Sickie edition...

So, This is my......

"OMG...it's Thursday, you gotta do a HNT picture, but you feel too sick to do anything." shot. I told you I wanted this month to be Halloween themed. So I do got the pumpkin... and the black bra... lol..

I promise you all next week I will try to be a bit more creative..lol

Seems my arms are getting bigger. I do not like that and will have to seriously start sculpting them again. I already missed my run today and that's got me a bit pissy. I missed doing my run on Sunday (for great sex, so it was worth it!) so I did it on Monday, which moved my damn run days around.

Anyways... that's a fitness update post..lol

Happy HNT everyone!

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What a week so far!

What a week so far!

Well, I think it's safe to say that we have had a really crappy week. The weekend was great! My bf and I and his kids went up North to do some apple picking, stayed over at his campsite then headed home on Sunday... like we had planned.

Just about halfway home we heard a strange noise as we were turning off the highway exit - it was kinda scary, and it sounded like a tire was blown or something. He checked it all out but nothing *wrong* was showing, but to play it safe he took back roads home until we got to his parents house.
He borrowed his dads truck to take the kids and I home so all was well. That was the ending to our great weekend!

On Monday - his phone pretty much totally stopped working like it shoulda been..We will need to get that replaced now.

On Tuesday I started with a sore throat, and his sore throat that he had was turning into a sinus pain and pressure. For him it is his ears. they are so clogged and it's also in his chest. For me, it feels like I am swallowing glass. Everytime I swallow I wanna cry.

Wednesday we were both feeling like crap and last night was awful for me. My fever was running at 101.2 and everytime I moved - I froze. I had two super heavy blankets on, sweatshirt, heavy socks, the whole nine yards! Absolutely awful.

I am outta work today. There was no way I was going to go in feeling this gross. My crew runs me ragged some days, and I need a resting day! The only reason I am up now is because I had to check my neglected emails and make payment arrangements to the cable company! And so I figured I'd make a quick post since it's been so quiet in here..

My fever is down a bit... running at 99/100. So that is good. Still feels like I am swallowing glass though. If I can find a older HNT picture I will post that later today. Am not in the mood to be taking pictures to post anything. I do know for sure that for this month - all my HNT's will be Halloween based themes. So, I might actually have to take a photo if I can't find something...

My bf will be down tonight if he is feeling better. We both took the day off tomorrow so we could hang out together. Ironic isn't it?

We were not figuring on hanging out in bed together - sick. lol.

Seriously, I think I am getting old. I keep catching all these stupid bugs that are going around. I got the same damn thing not too long ago.. and it happened when I had that Friday off as well!

Somebody don't like the idea of me having Fridays off I think...

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